I am so small before this big idea. Yet I proclaim that I am an atheist.
Like any other child I was driven towards god in unilateral devotion. Preached about good things, great things and powerful things god could make possible in our lives. I used to be so happy eager and enthusiastic in participating rituals that are associated with god as I used to see happiness, harmony and an ultimate treat of sweets.
I love the tranquility radiated in temples masques and churches even today. I go sit near such edifices only to feel serene. The other thing that arrests my senses is the magnificent architectural ideas they were built up on.
One stranger asked me a funny question as to why I decided to be an atheist. I told him that it’s not a decision but an observation. Not that I am taking sides extreme. But I am curious to find out answers for so many questions that could not be answered. If life started a billion years ago we are not going to get an answer in an hour or day. And with respect to natures own time sense human life of 100 years is just a blink of an eye.
I am yet not ready to submit to a belief that I must stop my imagination and inquisitiveness just because it is easier to believe in something that’s done by majority. It is always tough to collide with people whom you love and suddenly display a paradigm shift in attitude when I claim that I would rather look for answers than joining the flow.
The aspects that guide this thought are scientific, ethical, moral and social. I refer not to look towards the last three aspects as it is too heart breaking to see the atrocities around the world in the name of fate or Karma. People just resign to what’s given to them and try not to alter or fine tune their own attitude in life. They just do what ever sins they wish to perform and at the end of the day they pray got to get absolved of sins they committed. I feel baffled by this kind of perspective that they observe so blatantly.
On Mumbai roads I see cows on tow with a man or woman with hay stock on their heads. In Hinduism cow is treated as sacred animal. Now the activity that would happen here is people come and pay money to that man or woman and buy grass and feed that to cow. Such a wonderful capitalization of seeking god’s blessing in which every transaction is nothing less than a business that fetches profit to everyone. The cow bless the devotee because he fed her grass, the devotee is happy because he earned his share of good impression that qualifies him to enter haven when he dies and the owner of cow earns money.
Islam on the other hand preaches the good deed about people giving alms to poor and needy. I lived in an area that’s predominantly Muslim. I watch in horror an organized way to beg and reap this religious sentiment. They even carry along battery operated Public Addressing Systems to explain, justify and coerce money for a divine if not noble cause. I know lots of people in this religion who work so hard and earn money from penny to penny and on this occasion they suddenly give away most of their earnings to poor and needy who shall forever remain poor and needy, not by virtue but by choice. Why that is these alms could not be organized to create an institution where people could be offered skills and education to take on real word and its demands without compromising their own faith in god??? Why is the super million rich Arabs exist right beside hungry African and Phatan Children?
Christianity on the other hand shows an invisible distinction between catholic and protestant principles. It is incredible to see people fight for succession in Christian charities and trusts when the head passes away.
My point is why is that a way of life guided by the principles given by so called almighty is ripped and shredded in to pieces by its followers and still fight another dimension of this area.... About faith and belief and those who belive not???
I revered a few personalities though who served mankind with no veiled inclinations towards leading the weak towards god. Mother Theresa is such a person. Looking at her picture my hands rise on their own in total devotion. To my understanding she just served needy and never in her life asked anyone anything in return. She retained her faith in her own heart and actively participated what she must. I am fortunate to be blessed by her when I was a little kid. She came to my school to collect donations and I gladly gave her my pocket money that could not have bought me anything more than a piece of candy. And then there was another Imam who belongs to my small town used to cure scorpian bites with no distinction between his patient's faith attatched.
If the concept of haven and hell exists I saw them right here on earth. People enjoy and suffer in proportions and moments that are either known or unknown to them. A destitute poverty if termed as a punishment there shall be a moment where he smiles too and I shall call it haven. A rich man’s indulgence in heavenly luxury suddenly makes him get under the scalpel of a surgeon who performs bypass surgery is no less than hell.
I wonder… why do I need to look up towards something that’s yet so hypothetic??? Why is that I am not allowed to follow my own heart and its greatest challenge to minimize my own hurtful actions towards others??? I feel harmonious living… is to understand our own priorities first and work towards them in a way that hurts no one to an extent.
I am not telling that there could be an act that hath no side effects. But if we could workout in such way that no one would feel offended and we feel not our greed is not fulfilled, we need no supernatural force.
Funny thing is over a period of time I developed an attitude to counter this constant abrasion. I started telling people that I pray god for their safety, health and happiness. Many of them mildly surprised in their own suspicious way and few of them were happy in sadistic way to tell me that I understood what’s what at the end.
I beg to differ. Why must I hurt some one who is right before me just for an ambiguous notion about someone who does not exist??? Most of the people I love believe in god. In fact I am so alone in this journey in navigating between people who believe in god. I can not make them feel sad for some trivial matter and I would bow my head not to God but to their love towards me
I started realizing the word God must actually be interpreted in to words like faith and determination. These two qualities are the primary ingredients in what ever venture, philosophy or idea you wish to choose. Be it a philanthropic thing or be it an egoistic misadventure. People who wish to be so rude like me point their fingers towards their own selves and go forth assigning their loyalty to themselves. And people who wish not to take any responsibility to their own actions point their fingers towards God.
The most beautiful thing in human beings is though they are indoctrinated by faith or lack of faith they still have an iota of humanity left in them. I see such humanity on offering a glass of water to offering a brief smile to make the deprived feel… privileged.
Hence I would rather look towards faith that could be given a universal name God. I still wish not to believe or mesmerized by the so called supernatural force that guides everything in the universe. I see that supernatural forces right before me and all around me. I receive, feel it and I radiate it in my own way. If at all I could make someone smile even with a silly joke I feel so great and be content that I elevated their faith to a minuscule level in making their own lives towards the next ascension of happiness.
I will walk, run, stumble and fall in my race towards life. I shall get up tend my own wounds; wipe my tears by myself or by those who extend their divine hands towards me. I shall learn from my own good deeds and bad thoughts and recalibrate my head heart and soul. I shall make my body fit to carry out the objectives of my head, heart and soul. I shall seek only what I need and I shall be available to those who have faith in my ability in fulfilling their needs. I shall develop my own instincts in finer discretion to know if I were being exploited or encouraged.
I shall remain a lose cannon in this greater idea that rules the masses of world.
I shall remain a confirmed atheist. May god bless you all…
Like any other child I was driven towards god in unilateral devotion. Preached about good things, great things and powerful things god could make possible in our lives. I used to be so happy eager and enthusiastic in participating rituals that are associated with god as I used to see happiness, harmony and an ultimate treat of sweets.
I love the tranquility radiated in temples masques and churches even today. I go sit near such edifices only to feel serene. The other thing that arrests my senses is the magnificent architectural ideas they were built up on.
One stranger asked me a funny question as to why I decided to be an atheist. I told him that it’s not a decision but an observation. Not that I am taking sides extreme. But I am curious to find out answers for so many questions that could not be answered. If life started a billion years ago we are not going to get an answer in an hour or day. And with respect to natures own time sense human life of 100 years is just a blink of an eye.
I am yet not ready to submit to a belief that I must stop my imagination and inquisitiveness just because it is easier to believe in something that’s done by majority. It is always tough to collide with people whom you love and suddenly display a paradigm shift in attitude when I claim that I would rather look for answers than joining the flow.
The aspects that guide this thought are scientific, ethical, moral and social. I refer not to look towards the last three aspects as it is too heart breaking to see the atrocities around the world in the name of fate or Karma. People just resign to what’s given to them and try not to alter or fine tune their own attitude in life. They just do what ever sins they wish to perform and at the end of the day they pray got to get absolved of sins they committed. I feel baffled by this kind of perspective that they observe so blatantly.
On Mumbai roads I see cows on tow with a man or woman with hay stock on their heads. In Hinduism cow is treated as sacred animal. Now the activity that would happen here is people come and pay money to that man or woman and buy grass and feed that to cow. Such a wonderful capitalization of seeking god’s blessing in which every transaction is nothing less than a business that fetches profit to everyone. The cow bless the devotee because he fed her grass, the devotee is happy because he earned his share of good impression that qualifies him to enter haven when he dies and the owner of cow earns money.
Islam on the other hand preaches the good deed about people giving alms to poor and needy. I lived in an area that’s predominantly Muslim. I watch in horror an organized way to beg and reap this religious sentiment. They even carry along battery operated Public Addressing Systems to explain, justify and coerce money for a divine if not noble cause. I know lots of people in this religion who work so hard and earn money from penny to penny and on this occasion they suddenly give away most of their earnings to poor and needy who shall forever remain poor and needy, not by virtue but by choice. Why that is these alms could not be organized to create an institution where people could be offered skills and education to take on real word and its demands without compromising their own faith in god??? Why is the super million rich Arabs exist right beside hungry African and Phatan Children?
Christianity on the other hand shows an invisible distinction between catholic and protestant principles. It is incredible to see people fight for succession in Christian charities and trusts when the head passes away.
My point is why is that a way of life guided by the principles given by so called almighty is ripped and shredded in to pieces by its followers and still fight another dimension of this area.... About faith and belief and those who belive not???
I revered a few personalities though who served mankind with no veiled inclinations towards leading the weak towards god. Mother Theresa is such a person. Looking at her picture my hands rise on their own in total devotion. To my understanding she just served needy and never in her life asked anyone anything in return. She retained her faith in her own heart and actively participated what she must. I am fortunate to be blessed by her when I was a little kid. She came to my school to collect donations and I gladly gave her my pocket money that could not have bought me anything more than a piece of candy. And then there was another Imam who belongs to my small town used to cure scorpian bites with no distinction between his patient's faith attatched.
If the concept of haven and hell exists I saw them right here on earth. People enjoy and suffer in proportions and moments that are either known or unknown to them. A destitute poverty if termed as a punishment there shall be a moment where he smiles too and I shall call it haven. A rich man’s indulgence in heavenly luxury suddenly makes him get under the scalpel of a surgeon who performs bypass surgery is no less than hell.
I wonder… why do I need to look up towards something that’s yet so hypothetic??? Why is that I am not allowed to follow my own heart and its greatest challenge to minimize my own hurtful actions towards others??? I feel harmonious living… is to understand our own priorities first and work towards them in a way that hurts no one to an extent.
I am not telling that there could be an act that hath no side effects. But if we could workout in such way that no one would feel offended and we feel not our greed is not fulfilled, we need no supernatural force.
Funny thing is over a period of time I developed an attitude to counter this constant abrasion. I started telling people that I pray god for their safety, health and happiness. Many of them mildly surprised in their own suspicious way and few of them were happy in sadistic way to tell me that I understood what’s what at the end.
I beg to differ. Why must I hurt some one who is right before me just for an ambiguous notion about someone who does not exist??? Most of the people I love believe in god. In fact I am so alone in this journey in navigating between people who believe in god. I can not make them feel sad for some trivial matter and I would bow my head not to God but to their love towards me
I started realizing the word God must actually be interpreted in to words like faith and determination. These two qualities are the primary ingredients in what ever venture, philosophy or idea you wish to choose. Be it a philanthropic thing or be it an egoistic misadventure. People who wish to be so rude like me point their fingers towards their own selves and go forth assigning their loyalty to themselves. And people who wish not to take any responsibility to their own actions point their fingers towards God.
The most beautiful thing in human beings is though they are indoctrinated by faith or lack of faith they still have an iota of humanity left in them. I see such humanity on offering a glass of water to offering a brief smile to make the deprived feel… privileged.
Hence I would rather look towards faith that could be given a universal name God. I still wish not to believe or mesmerized by the so called supernatural force that guides everything in the universe. I see that supernatural forces right before me and all around me. I receive, feel it and I radiate it in my own way. If at all I could make someone smile even with a silly joke I feel so great and be content that I elevated their faith to a minuscule level in making their own lives towards the next ascension of happiness.
I will walk, run, stumble and fall in my race towards life. I shall get up tend my own wounds; wipe my tears by myself or by those who extend their divine hands towards me. I shall learn from my own good deeds and bad thoughts and recalibrate my head heart and soul. I shall make my body fit to carry out the objectives of my head, heart and soul. I shall seek only what I need and I shall be available to those who have faith in my ability in fulfilling their needs. I shall develop my own instincts in finer discretion to know if I were being exploited or encouraged.
I shall remain a lose cannon in this greater idea that rules the masses of world.
I shall remain a confirmed atheist. May god bless you all…
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