She is silent in her demeanor. Curious in her heart. Baffled in her logic. Dreamy in her life. I know this girl past four years. I discovered her, as she was too keen on discovering if anyone could be as restless as she was. What started as a shy conversation socked with interest in each other. Her child like innocence coupled with streaks of impressive intelligence made me wonder, if she is what she was claiming. A teenager with ideas and images that make any head swim in wonder.
For some reason that’s not clear she used to be sensitive about her loneliness. Accepted no intrusion from real world around. Curious about being probed in concern. Awaited an opportunity to smile unhindered. All the while her own unseen fear guided her to be cautious.
With confidence offered by being incognito she tried to find if she could share the burden of my heart. I asked why would she be interested in the pain I have been guarding over a period of time. Her smile was so pure and as she said… Won’t it lessen if you share??? I smiled in return and said Pain can not be lessened in principle as it just gets passed to another heart that’s willing to share.
Yet another smile and she told me perhaps my pain would collide with her pain and neutralize. Perhaps she would see that her pain is no greater than my own pain as she try understanding the same.
I was taken aback.
I told her the perilous journey I took in my life that’s a protracted effort between head and heart. Surely used my discretion not to infuse the intensity of pain that she is not aware of. She absorbed my words in silence and with a softness that’s so soothing… said… I will be there for you… To listen to you… To wait for you… To think of you.
I asked her what would she get in return. Its again words soft… like chimes of wind bells in silent breeze… I need nothing except your willingness to share thoughts with me. I need nothing but to touch you from afar and unseen… when your tear is sliding down your cheek. I need nothing else than an opportunity to hug you to as you sob… to seek the quivering anguish and make it feel less harmful.
I dreamt of finding life in pain… she said. Life that’s so abundant around and pain that’s so intense. It’s a reflection I wish to see right before me that offers strength. The strength that’s germinated within me shall be passed on to you to make you smile. I dream of making you see how wonderful it feels to smile after emptying your heart out. I am a girl who dreams… Not just of good things… But good things that come out of bad things. I dream to find a gem while digging coals. I dream of finding an ember beneath ashes.
And her dreams.. with her eyes wide open… made me smile…
For some reason that’s not clear she used to be sensitive about her loneliness. Accepted no intrusion from real world around. Curious about being probed in concern. Awaited an opportunity to smile unhindered. All the while her own unseen fear guided her to be cautious.
With confidence offered by being incognito she tried to find if she could share the burden of my heart. I asked why would she be interested in the pain I have been guarding over a period of time. Her smile was so pure and as she said… Won’t it lessen if you share??? I smiled in return and said Pain can not be lessened in principle as it just gets passed to another heart that’s willing to share.
Yet another smile and she told me perhaps my pain would collide with her pain and neutralize. Perhaps she would see that her pain is no greater than my own pain as she try understanding the same.
I was taken aback.
I told her the perilous journey I took in my life that’s a protracted effort between head and heart. Surely used my discretion not to infuse the intensity of pain that she is not aware of. She absorbed my words in silence and with a softness that’s so soothing… said… I will be there for you… To listen to you… To wait for you… To think of you.
I asked her what would she get in return. Its again words soft… like chimes of wind bells in silent breeze… I need nothing except your willingness to share thoughts with me. I need nothing but to touch you from afar and unseen… when your tear is sliding down your cheek. I need nothing else than an opportunity to hug you to as you sob… to seek the quivering anguish and make it feel less harmful.
I dreamt of finding life in pain… she said. Life that’s so abundant around and pain that’s so intense. It’s a reflection I wish to see right before me that offers strength. The strength that’s germinated within me shall be passed on to you to make you smile. I dream of making you see how wonderful it feels to smile after emptying your heart out. I am a girl who dreams… Not just of good things… But good things that come out of bad things. I dream to find a gem while digging coals. I dream of finding an ember beneath ashes.
And her dreams.. with her eyes wide open… made me smile…
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everyone has an inspiration in life,you found yours ,be glad,savour each moment and stay positive ...
Thank you angel....
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